I had a dream sometime ago. It was weird. but, when i woke up, i felt so in love. so i hugged my pillow. its the kind of love where...you just wanna hug and be close to that person. not the "WANNA HAVIN SMEIS???" kinda love. like wilson....teyyy.... anyways, imma post about my dream. and no...im not following nelson or anything. this really was my dream. and when i woke up from it... i swear, i was hugging my pillows so hard that my arms where aching at school. this dream inspired my many love scenarios floating around in my head. and i believe i have shared parts of this dream with ppl b4. but in very horny ways.
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It starts off, on the beach. (why do love stories always have beaches in them??) he was standing next to some girl. I don't think he knows her. But in my dream, i guess he knew her very well. Thats how dreams always are right? there was just something..so...nice about her. She talked to him alot. as they were walking down the beach, the were having nice conversations. i dunno, something bout the holidays, and favourite vacation places. Happy couple. So then, the guy asks the girl how her family was doing. Then she starts tearing. her eyes are getting all red and watery. so the guy knows he just asked a very bad question at a very bad time. so he brings her to sit down at a log nearby. a dry one ofcourse. and she starts crying. so he hugs her. her head is burried in his arms. i guess i was haing one of those, camera view dreams, when it's like you're watching TV but it all seems so real. and she starts wailing in his arms, and for some reason there's no one around. and she starts shouting out all sorts of things. all her family problems. there were things going on in her family that nobody knew about. and i guess this was the first time she ever told anybody. She's shouting her head off and crying and the guy listening suddenly takes her shoulders and pulls her close. He starts crying aswel. they both cry and cry on the beach. i wonder how he felt. his shirt was dripping wet with tears. they just stand there, crying on each others shoulders, not caring about who's looking. and thats when the guy bends lower to whisper in the girls ears. he whispers it real soft. for some reason i could hear what he was trying to say. he said " i know exactly how you feel". and he burts in tears and the girls does the same. and now it's him sharing all his problems. something about him not being able to get anything right. and his family kicked him out of his house. and he's all alone and doesn't know what to do with no money no nothing. and he's staying in his friends house. after sharing for quite a while, the two are still..just standing there in each others arms.
"you're not alone..."
"yeah i am. i've got nobody, no one."
"that's where you're wrong, now you've got me, we'll look out for each other...we'll get through this together"
"it's not that simple"
"no one said it would be easy, it almost never is"
"i can't burden you"
"i wont leave you"
"PLEASE, DON'T DO THIS TO ME...I CAN'T EVEN TAKE CARE OF MYSELF!!! HOW THE HELL AM I SUPPOSED TO TAKE CARE OF YOU???"
the girl wants to help the guy out. but the guy can't let her worry about him. and i have no idea why, but the girl suddenly just runs off in tears and leaves him standing there. She can't believe what she just heard. all throughout her life, people have been screaming and shouting at her. They all hate her for some reason. and somehow i knew all of this. and she couldn't stand to be shouted at again. now runs of to her car. the guy takes off after her, trying to firgure out what he did wrong. that's when it happened. remember how i said it was like i was watching this from a television? suddenly, im down on the beach. and i have a gun in my hands. what the heck am i doing with a gun? i have no idea. i see the girl running in my direction. face in her hands. crying. and the guy not too far off behind her, chasing her. i aim my gun at her.
i don't know what im doing...
why am i doing this i ask myself.
then suddenly something was talking to me in my head...."shoot her, now"
i don't know why. in dreams sometimes you do stupid things without knowing why. but you just do them. you know what i mean right? like you just suddenly do something stupid coz you think you're supposed to. like it was destiny or something. well...thats how i felt.
i shot her.
she stops running.... she looks down. i've shot her in the stomach. in my dream im crying right now. i just thought i had to do it. she looks up at me, and says
"thank you....for eveything..."
the guy runs down to her. he picks her up and crys and crys and crys. so he gives her one last kiss to the cheek and mouths out.
"i love you...but if you need to go...i'll let you go..."
and he puts her down, and crys over her. i remember this part very clearly.
" Jamie, i'll always remember you"
her name was Jamie. She was 18. She was a beautiful girl. She lived in a rundown house with her so called family. And i couldn't help but feel like i had a part to play in her life. like i knew her. just a dreamish feeling. and i knew that there was a time, where i was once in love with her. she always wanted me to kill her. to end all of it. in dreams sometimes you just know things. things that don't make sense. i knew...that i had done her a favour. i ended her sufferings. i will always remember her face.
"Jamie, i'll always remember you"
and i've kept my promise.
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